Neko

I've lost myself
In the world of which and which
My sides are battling
Dying each time

I can't tell what's right anymore
I can't make up my mind
Die because I can't see you
Or live and hurt and try

Closing my eyes to try and dream
But the plan, currupted each time
The nights that work
Are forever tagged in my mind

I pinched my skin, over and over
Drawing dark red blood
Am I real? Am I really here?
I'll close my eyes, dream this all away

Please lead me back into our light
To your arms, your reauring voice
I long for...
Can I see you again?

Our plans of meeting has been subsided
What a perfect birthday gift it could have been
One day we'll re-live our memories once more
Til that day, I'll disappear

But now I'll drown myself slowly
I can't breathe
That pain is growing, help me
I can't breathe

I can't see
I can't feel
I'll still question, day by day
If I'm really here...

forbiden love is what I posses
Locked up in frnt of my tainted soul for all I am
So close yet fair away from my ever longing clutch
Ball n chain around my ankles

My garden consists of red rose petals
pulled off one by one
the pharse repeating in my head, over... over...
I love but I dont, lost in sexual thoughts

A knot forms in my throat, choking
Knowing that this will never be
My jacket soaking up my water
drowning dorwning forevermore

My fantasies run wild
Like a tiger on the hunt
Sometimes I just wanna...
Snap out! Stop dreaming

Im drowning in my feelings
slowly, slowly
slowly dorwning